Trust Your Instincts !!

What happened to the zeal...which was there deep down inside asking you to take care...to achieve..to overcome..the fear thats been naggin you for some time...
how do you confront them or is better to just shy away ?

Who has to take charge..or is there a right time to take charge...
Shall I just live my life on a daily routine...but i have to do something.. to wander in the unchartered land...may be theres a point to prove...those hidden feeling which keep haunting back from time to time..
Every now and then it feels like its all a waste...where nothing worthwhile is achieved.. the same day and the same night..keeps on repeating it self.. what ever happened to the calibre..the destiny which is to be made...the paths which are trodden, marked by potholes...but lead to a fantasy...

Theres a thirst within...but how to quench..theres a well some where around...but how to go...a path to be taken..but which one..theres an answer....

All I need to do is Trust my Instincts..and Obey my Thirst...

Mt. Fuji

Had been waiting, to set my self loose...what better way then to climb in the wilderness, on something challenging...yet some thing beautiful...
The curtains were there..with the initial scare of the sky crying down.. oh what a pity...but it was not the way...things had to turn out.... I had to runaway.. and sure I did..

What was it like.. when you are again at the world's view.. with the sun on ur face...while u face the world...oh sure there was that feelin....the little slip..the freedom...but then that was not to be..
instead it was a very conscious effort to remain sane, that effort, to again fit into the group of the socalled 'mature'. But yeah, It was different than daily things...It was like me again.. the same ol' kid..trying to enjoy what is mine...being alone in the crowd...its difficult at times.. but it was fun..


It was the same ..like to remain under a zillion stars staring down from the sky.. like the sky is lit at night with lights in a distant city..but no they were not here this time.. alas.. memories remain..places change....

lookin forward for the next one though...where it will be me again..jst me..!!

Who Am I ?

Does age matter ??
Eyes wide opened ...when the number comes out.. why ?
Is maturity directly propotional to your age..or what was it...
"maturity is directly propotional to the amount of humiliation you can tolerate."
Suddenly the expectations are high...people realise things have been achieved pretty early in life...
Is it pure luck, or all in born talent or may be the opprtunities utilised well !!
Some thing like.. "may be 1 in a million can do" or better still " you are going too fast, one day you will crash".. was it taunt.. or acknowledgement of something...
at the end...being famous is something...fulfilling somebody's expectations something else..
one does well, gives hope... hope turns into expectations... and fulfilling expectations leads to glory...whilst trying to fulfill expectations ...which need not be... leads to demise of self...
At the end.. who are you...one who was before he started...or the one who is trying to continue the start which was there...

Is it good to please each and all...or am I trying to live a life thats not mine.
..its an alter ego...a soul thats forced to hide somewhere...because he is not expected

maybe its the confused soul...which knows what to do...or maybe he doesnt..
he knows the reason...
but the reason of the reason is what he cant really grasp..
he hates himself for being himself...yet its him what makes him...
things are done which are supposed to be...but is the statisfaction of right there ??

Frown, at my own self
For THE reason still a mystery to me...
wondering why I am doing so
I do it still unwantingly...